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Dedicated to Xristos.



the picture below thats about me being pissed off, yes i'm pissed becasuse today at school everything was going wrong, i had detention, the only one i cared didn't look at me... in fact he rather fuck off with my worst enemy.I like seeing him happy, but god, not with the wrong people, adn if i cant except his friends... then i dont know how any of this is going to work out, as friends or more, i just dont know.(Dec 9,2004)

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Chris,
you dont know how much you mean to me, todays date: Dec 02,2004.You'll always be in my heart, even if you come to hate me. I don't know why I didn't think about proving my love to you would be this hard, I thought it was going to be so much easier. Love is like a really large puzzle, thanks for letting me relize that. I have so much to thank you for, I can't even list them. Everyone misses us being a couple now, and so do i. my feelings revolve around you. I want to return as we were, and I was to craddle your fears away. Now it's my time to step out of the shell, and stop turning away.I just simply wish you were here. I'm sick of the gossip as well as you, im sure. and I hope someday we'll say "fuck that" and keep going on with life as a couple again, but I can't deside that. We both have to commit to a new realationship. All I have left to say is " Sayoga Poepoelli... I love you My Xristos"

the only thing i've cared about has left me and i'm sick of keeping this all secred. It's time to come out of my shell, and tell what i really feel.No more lies, nor broken promises.This is the true me now, and im sick of begging, i feel like a cry for mercy. All I need is a really great friend and i have one picked out for me, only maybe he cant see.

All I want to see is a smile on your face, all you need is loving care, and I promise that's what i'll give I feel your pain when you come to me, I feel your pain when you come to me, I, I alone feel your pain, I fell it myself, so don't be so negative. I understand when you help me, I understand when you help me, I always will so don't be so negative towards me, as i lay here i'll talk it all back to the past with me.
 
 

"Angels"

I sit and wait does an angel contemplate my fate and do they know the places
Where we go when we're grey and old
'cos I've been told that salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed thoughts running through my head
And i feel that love is dead I'm loving angels instead


And through it all he offers me protection a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me
When I come to call he won't forsake me I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak and my pain walks down a one way street I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love and as the feeling grows
He breathes flesh to my bones and when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

Xristos, you are like a wish you have an impact like being stuck by lightning rather then a lightning bug.you let me dream. You let me soar.you let me tap into a time of limitless possibillity and boundless energy that gives me the power to accomplish what ever i mught otherwise never have imagined.you are what i i want in my heart, not in mind.(for other words, I like you for the way you treat me and make me feel rather then your looks and charm.... But those do give plus+.) You could be the most raggy,snotty,nerdiest kid, and i would still love you.

hey I've got a funny Star Wars Adult movie for you, it's made by Pixar though, it's totally funny, i think you guy will like i love it, i've only seen half of it, but that's ok, i'll see the end soon enough.Enjoy. it's in the botton left coner area. thank you.p.s. Please E-mail me your comments.

Careless.your eyes blink past this time,
 my cut will get  deep,
with every word you scream,
and stop treating me like a child.
This isn't fairy land,
so get along this time,
its too late to take it back and say its ok,
i never really wanted this,
and im only a inch away.
this fair land isnt real!
So get along this time in my mind.
im sick of his Lie!
this fairy tail of his has lost its mind,
and i've got no more tears to dry!!

Someone and I talking about Chris.
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:12:42 PM): yo
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:12:53 PM): it's Krysia
lelnat11 (4:13:12 PM): hey
lelnat11 (4:13:43 PM): how r u?
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:13:49 PM): im ok, yourself?
lelnat11 (4:13:55 PM): good
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:14:07 PM): lookie here.
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:14:09 PM): spssoccer10: i don't talk 2 smokers
spssoccer10: i don't want to talk 2 u because you smoke
spssoccer10: and your friend said u did
spssoccer10: amanda
ImAmSpEcAiL: omg, you're an ass if you care about the past. And now i dont want to talk to you, you're a fucking fagg if you care about stupid crap like that, its not like i would be an idiot and ask you if you wanted to or not, that's in the past and you just fucked up big time, stay Free, you fucking sqeaky clean ass hole prep!
spssoccer10: riend you didn't
spssoccer10 signed off at 4:12:29 PM.

ImAmSpEcAiL (4:15:01 PM): i blocked her
lelnat11 (4:15:02 PM): wow!
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:15:07 PM): yeah she pisses me off
lelnat11 (4:15:32 PM): i cant believe she said that
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:15:47 PM): she's prolly showing her parents.
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:15:52 PM): but what do i care.
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:16:42 PM): so anyway. what's been goin' on?
lelnat11 (4:17:02 PM): nm u?
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:17:32 PM): just trying to figure out a way to get Chris back.
lelnat11 (4:17:45 PM): how sweet
lelnat11 (4:18:35 PM): if chris never went to this school who would you like?
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:18:57 PM): yea yeah, I really like him, not just as a bf but he's someone specail to me, he's grown on to me, and i feel like we're connected like an X, and he broke up with me, so now im lost and loney feeling like apart of me id missing.
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:19:00 PM): Well... no one.
lelnat11 (4:19:26 PM): lol
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:19:29 PM): Chris gave me a chance to show him who i was, and (hopefully) liked me for who i was.and no one else has done that.
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:20:12 PM): plus, he would let me open up what was locked inside for so long,and we're here for each other.
ImAmSpEcAiL (4:20:34 PM): but i feel like we're growing apart.
lelnat11 is away at 4:21:15 PM.

ImAmSpEcAiL (4:21:44 PM): where'd you go?

Auto response from lelnat11 (4:21:45 PM): not here right now

lstnanvrendglife (9:27:57 PM): screw my dad\
nonaccepted (9:28:09 PM): brb cassie is gunna look at the "fight"
lstnanvrendglife (9:28:17 PM): y??
lstnanvrendglife (9:28:27 PM): thats dumb
lstnanvrendglife (9:30:47 PM): wat fucking fight
lstnanvrendglife (9:30:52 PM): ???
nonaccepted (9:32:49 PM): look on my site and you'll see
lstnanvrendglife (9:33:16 PM): no thx
lstnanvrendglife (9:33:17 PM): lol
nonaccepted (9:33:39 PM): ok  
lstnanvrendglife (9:33:59 PM): i dont have the site
nonaccepted (9:35:05 PM): http://forfreefire.tripod.com/
lstnanvrendglife (9:35:38 PM): ok
nonaccepted (9:36:10 PM):  you're so sweet... wait... now that we're going out can i call you my darling again?
lstnanvrendglife (9:36:28 PM): ya
nonaccepted (9:36:34 PM): YAY!!!!!
nonaccepted (9:36:48 PM): and will you PLEASE tell me what you want for your b-day?
lstnanvrendglife (9:37:39 PM): nothin
nonaccepted (9:37:52 PM): so have everything you could possably want?
nonaccepted (9:37:59 PM): so you have*
lstnanvrendglife (9:38:34 PM): no but everything i want from u
nonaccepted (9:39:11 PM): fine.... But im still getting you......something
lstnanvrendglife (9:39:17 PM): no u arent
nonaccepted (9:39:20 PM): yes i am
lstnanvrendglife (9:39:37 PM): no u fucking arent
lstnanvrendglife (9:39:43 PM): u and megan neeed to chill
nonaccepted (9:39:53 PM): You dont want me to?
nonaccepted (9:40:01 PM): why does i need to chill?
nonaccepted (9:40:10 PM): what about Megan?
lstnanvrendglife (9:40:19 PM): nvm
nonaccepted (9:40:24 PM): is she trying to get your good side?
lstnanvrendglife (9:40:41 PM): no
lstnanvrendglife (9:40:44 PM): im saying
lstnanvrendglife (9:40:53 PM): u guys need to chill i read the site
nonaccepted (9:41:11 PM): well... after amanda and I are done kickin' her ass I will.
lstnanvrendglife (9:43:06 PM): not amand
lstnanvrendglife (9:43:06 PM): a
lstnanvrendglife (9:43:12 PM): she's a pansy
nonaccepted (9:43:27 PM): yes aamanda is pissed at her too, and she said if she has to get in there she will.
nonaccepted (9:43:45 PM): well... when im done kickin' her ass.
lstnanvrendglife (9:44:02 PM): ya jst u
nonaccepted (9:44:04 PM): I know, Ann and Kiria will be at my side and i couldnt really care if Amanda was.
lstnanvrendglife (9:44:08 PM): u can amanda is a pansy
lstnanvrendglife (9:44:15 PM): ann
nonaccepted (9:44:16 PM): do you think i would win?
lstnanvrendglife (9:44:16 PM): haha
lstnanvrendglife (9:44:23 PM): that little chicken shit
nonaccepted (9:44:32 PM): ann can have a mean punch sometimes when shes pissed.
lstnanvrendglife (9:44:36 PM): kiara can kick kind od
lstnanvrendglife (9:44:38 PM): *of
nonaccepted (9:45:03 PM): savana wants to fight me again.lol
lstnanvrendglife (9:45:19 PM): dont krysia
nonaccepted (9:45:36 PM): why it was fun, and i kicked her ass.
lstnanvrendglife (9:46:13 PM): so
lstnanvrendglife (9:46:18 PM): dont
nonaccepted (9:46:26 PM): Fine, for you.
nonaccepted (9:47:07 PM): btu i am kicking Megans ass, she was talking shit about everyone inclueding my parents... which only i can hate.
lstnanvrendglife (9:47:17 PM): ok but somone is getting beat up by me becuz it been like 8 day since my last fight
nonaccepted (9:47:48 PM): can it please be Allen?
nonaccepted (9:48:04 PM): he's mean to me when we're at Music.
lstnanvrendglife (9:48:38 PM): o i couldnt like wen we walked past him but i can now ok
nonaccepted (9:48:50 PM): well...
nonaccepted (9:48:54 PM): ....  sorry.
nonaccepted (9:50:01 PM):  hello?
lstnanvrendglife (9:50:16 PM): sry
nonaccepted (9:50:23 PM): it's...
nonaccepted (9:50:24 PM): ...ok
lstnanvrendglife (9:50:43 PM): so do u lo...............nvm
nonaccepted (9:51:08 PM): hey do you thin k i should cut my hair...like shit whats her name... ok fuck, i forgot it, but the lead singer of the Distillers?
nonaccepted (9:51:14 PM): yes i love you.
lstnanvrendglife (9:51:34 PM): hey how did u no i was asking that
lstnanvrendglife (9:51:35 PM): and no
lstnanvrendglife (9:51:40 PM): keep it that long
nonaccepted (9:51:43 PM): ok then...
lstnanvrendglife (9:51:56 PM): i hate my hair!!! \
nonaccepted (9:52:03 PM): I like it.
lstnanvrendglife (9:52:07 PM): it shorter than anto's
nonaccepted (9:52:11 PM): no its not
lstnanvrendglife (9:52:16 PM): so does maddison
lstnanvrendglife (9:52:28 PM): y do the girls that like me like it
nonaccepted (9:52:45 PM): well... i love you... she likes you... shes just saying it.lol
lstnanvrendglife (9:52:46 PM): exept maddison is really dumb most of the time
nonaccepted (9:53:00 PM): like 999.9 percent of time
lstnanvrendglife (9:53:01 PM): i sure
nonaccepted (9:53:35 PM): guess what?
lstnanvrendglife (9:53:55 PM): wat wat wat!!
nonaccepted (9:54:08 PM): for the last past month...nvm
nonaccepted (9:54:14 PM): jp...
lstnanvrendglife (9:54:16 PM): no tell me
lstnanvrendglife (9:54:20 PM): o shit
nonaccepted (9:54:20 PM): i am... hold on
lstnanvrendglife (9:54:22 PM): i g2g
nonaccepted (9:54:26 PM):   ok.
nonaccepted (9:54:32 PM): tell you tomorrow.
lstnanvrendglife (9:54:35 PM): love ya i guess
nonaccepted (9:54:39 PM): love ya too
nonaccepted (9:54:47 PM): u guess?
lstnanvrendglife signed off at 9:54:50 PM.


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dkab5 (9:02:37 PM): repeat wat u just said
madkab5 (9:02:45 PM): i closed it by accident
nonaccepted (9:03:13 PM): u best back off becuz amanda gots her meat-hook jacked into Alec. So you're just a poser! Muha
madkab5 (9:04:09 PM): he hates her i have a better chase with him so chris is over u so i guess ur in chronic pain
nonaccepted (9:04:11 PM): in a Poser band too !!!
nonaccepted (9:04:27 PM): you would be surprized...
madkab5 (9:04:35 PM): repeat again plz clicked out of it
nonaccepted (9:05:10 PM): YOUR IN A POSER BAND TOO... AND THAT CHRIS THING... U WOULD BE SURPRIZED...
madkab5 (9:05:55 PM): oook u caught me im in a poser band ya ur totaly right
nonaccepted (9:06:50 PM): AMANDA JUST SAID..." YOU HAVE NOOOO CHANCE WITH ALEC BECUZ YOU;RE UGLY... AND I SAy.... becuz yoiur a fatmoe and you've got a big pig nose that could fit yo momma in.
nonaccepted (9:07:13 PM): and tell yo momma no piggy back rides... i have to go in a wheel chair now.
madkab5 (9:07:21 PM): r u talking to a manda
nonaccepted (9:07:33 PM): yup
madkab5 (9:07:59 PM): amanda is a big fat hoe and she should look in the mirrow
madkab5 (9:08:02 PM): ...
madkab5 (9:08:20 PM): she tries to be black that makes her a wigger
nonaccepted (9:09:11 PM): your fagg ass that tries to be punk, at least she doesnt try to be something shes not, and cares about other people, but she shouldnt like you, becuz your a fagg moe ass wipe with yo momma on your back.
madkab5 (9:09:54 PM): i dont try to be punk ya and she is not nice
nonaccepted (9:09:57 PM): your the hoe becuz your the wearing hoochie skirts with your pooser green cons.
nonaccepted (9:10:25 PM): bitch mess wit' me...
nonaccepted (9:10:30 PM): GO TO HELL!
madkab5 (9:10:35 PM): ur a dumb ass
nonaccepted (9:10:43 PM): YOU JUST NOTICED?
nonaccepted (9:11:01 PM): bitch ass mother fucker
nonaccepted (9:11:15 PM): at least amanda can make good memories.
madkab5 (9:11:16 PM): is that the best come back u got
madkab5 (9:11:23 PM): about wat
madkab5 (9:11:34 PM): how she forced alec to kiss her
madkab5 (9:11:43 PM): that scank
nonaccepted (9:11:50 PM): sorry chickie bbut your like seven years too late with that come back
nonaccepted (9:12:04 PM): shes not a scank you tramp!
nonaccepted (9:12:21 PM): stupid he kissed her
madkab5 (9:12:42 PM): u r so fucking a punk wanna be and dont try it and amanda is a wigger
madkab5 (9:12:53 PM): no he didnt her told me and alyssa
nonaccepted (9:13:12 PM): that it im kickin' your ass
madkab5 (9:13:26 PM): oook
madkab5 (9:13:29 PM): watever
madkab5 (9:13:37 PM): i will like to see u try
nonaccepted (9:13:49 PM): well... ya know alecs an ass and likesa to lie, maybe you guys should get together you both have a lot in common.;
nonaccepted (9:14:14 PM): fine... friday... at the park...
madkab5 (9:14:18 PM): YA WELL ATLEAST I AHVE FRIENDS WHO ACTUALLY LIKE ME
madkab5 (9:14:33 PM): STUPID ASS
madkab5 (9:15:00 PM): U AND AMANDA SHOULD HOOK UP UR BOTH WANNA BES ...
nonaccepted (9:15:09 PM): ouch... that really hurts... what the hell do i care if i have friends or not, if i have music thats all i need unlike you sqeaky clean taatle tail  ass, i dont care.
nonaccepted (9:15:26 PM): and we could have a three sum with you ha ha
madkab5 (9:15:39 PM): ur freakin lez bo
nonaccepted (9:15:48 PM): or better... u and yo momma and me and amand
nonaccepted (9:15:59 PM): NO IM NOT IM BEING SArcaatic.
nonaccepted (9:16:13 PM): and no cares what u have to say?
madkab5 (9:16:18 PM): how about u shut up u faget
nonaccepted (9:17:18 PM): omg... im hurt... Someone... please... make her take it back... my feelings are krusted... please oh please say sorry!.... No how about you shut the fuck becuz im not the one talking stupid shit
madkab5 (9:17:54 PM): i ahve ppl who care about me like my parents unlike ur s
nonaccepted (9:18:50 PM): well... i dont need to be taken care of, i can do shit by myself... i dont need to relay on mommy and daddys money
madkab5 (9:19:35 PM): i dont either becuz im not spoiled like ur "friends" that r fags
nonaccepted (9:19:43 PM): at least they can be
madkab5 (9:19:49 PM): be watr
nonaccepted (9:20:01 PM): be spoiled.
madkab5 (9:20:30 PM): they always r tthey get cell phone money shop almost every day and shit like that'
nonaccepted (9:20:57 PM): you're so poor you stepped on Chris's skate board, and she yelled at you to get off before you break it, becuz you would have to buy it.
nonaccepted (9:21:14 PM): at least they can get fun stuff... at least their parents make them happu.
nonaccepted (9:21:16 PM): happy*
madkab5 (9:22:01 PM): ur just a bitch and my parents make me happy without buying crap they dont need
nonaccepted (9:22:31 PM): yeah you're a bitch... stop being jelous and get over the fact that they can get what they want.and ecept it!
nonaccepted (9:22:44 PM): brb ass
madkab5 (9:22:55 PM): they are spoiled brats u get over it
madkab5 (9:23:05 PM): ur the ass
madkab5 (9:23:17 PM): drug addicter
madkab5 signed off at 9:25:01 PM.
 

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